only myself

" i`m too intelligent, too demanding,

and too resourceful for anyone to be able to take charge of me entirely;

no one knows me or loves me completely,

i have only myself.. "

you are what you take from these

on my way

" i don`t know where i`m going, but i`m on my way "

outsider

“ the kind of feeling

when everything you`re used to has been ripped away,

like there`s no more gravity,

and i`m left to drift in outer space with no idea where i`m going.. ” 

step away

" it`s not about what you`ve done, it`s about what you doing;

it`s all about where you going, no matter where you`ve been "

***

i`m just gonna step away from this shit

and invest in what i`ve got to do..

it`s a matter of days

the hell

" Okazuje się, że piekło to nie płonąca, wrząca otchłań ognia i cierpienia [...]
Piekło jest wtedy, kiedy ludzie, których kochasz najbardziej na świecie,
sięgają po twoją duszę i wyrywają ci ją. I robią to tylko dlatego, że mogą.. "

disappointment

" i cannot breathe, let me be free from myself,

i must survive this wonderful punishment called life "

***

everyone makes mistakes,

i mean im trully disappointed,

that`s all..

oh Lord, don`t bring me down

" i wrote a letter to the sky saying maybe one day you`ll get to kiss me.. "

***

19 days till moving to Wales, im pretty excited

its a perfect situation to think all trough, take a deep breath, spend time with dad, learn english, earn some money for study and to find new solutions..

on the other hand i would like u to get keep me here,

but its obvious - things`ve changed, i was just naive, yr lies were too much beautiful to understand what person u trully are..

but now i probably know in what direction, new way i should go,

my heart`s screaming, everything hurts right now, im freaking out

sometimes u just gotta let things go and moving on, dont look on back and just follow yr intuition..
but i dont even know if i could get u out of my head.. i admit - i cant sleep, eat either..

anyway.. we`ll see what`s gonna be

what a confession, in my case - shockkk! lol

so many words written here, i dont know what for

umm

wtf?

if u didnt hear it with yr own ears or see it with yr own eyes,

dont invent it with yr small mind and share it with yr big mouth

we found love

" it`s like you`re screaming, and no one can hear

you almost feel ashamed

that someone could be that important

that without them you feel like nothing

no one will ever understand how much it hurts

you feel hopeless

like nothing can save you

and when it`s over and it`s gone

you almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back

so that you could have the good.. "

my new inspiration.. Irina Shayk :)

bonsoir ; *

in my head only U

hi, there`s only 4 months to my freedom

many thoughts of new home n life..

at current moment im mentaly exhausted

n im waiting for 2 weeks of boredom

n a huge miracle which`ll cause that U`ll be finally mine!